Fear

4 days. That's how long I have left until I leave for LA. I'll be there in 6 days. Things are beginning to dwindle down here in Iowa. My last day working at Pizza Hut was on Sunday and my last day at Adventureland is tomorrow. Adventureland is a little bit more personal to me, only because i've worked there for 3 summers and I know I won't be coming back next summer. I've begun to put all of my Pizza Hut tip money in the bank (finally). After 8 months of storing it in my room I was beginning to run out of places to put it. I feel like the bank people hate me now because I give them a huge stack of money for them to count. But whatever.

Tomorrow I will begin buying items for my apartment. I guess it's better to get them here than to rush to get them out there. I still have all of my packing to do, but it shouldn't take that long. Unlike my roommate, I have very little to bring. My biggest items are my TV and my printer.

Thursday will be my last day of watching Will & Grace for awhile. I'll finish watching the recordings and then delete it. I know it sounds a little pathetic, but if Will & Grace were on Netflix than this problem would be solved. ARE YOU LISTENING NETFIX?!?! 

It's all becoming real...finally. I'm feeling all sorts of emotions about this. Some are good, some are bad. I've heard from several different people that I need to do this while I'm young, because if I don't do it now than I will never do it. I've also read that I should never let fear get in my way of doing something. That I should face my fears. I'm not exactly sure if this is a fear of mine on account of I've always wanted to do this, but it still seems somewhat useful.

I've been looking at jobs in Pasadena on Craigslist. I found this one job that is very flexible, pays a good amount, and is specifically for college aged students. But I'm not sure if I want it. My dream job would be to work on a studio, but since that requires experience, I think working at a comedy club or a theatre would be a cool job too. Hopefully I can get one of these jobs and network my way up the rankings and meet people. I sure hope luck is on my side.

Will & Grace and Big City Dreams

Today was a pretty relaxed day, which after the week I had, today was very much needed. I started the day with watching one of my all-time favorite TV shows...Will & Grace. I'm not sure if you realize how obsessed I am with this show. I have seen nearly every episode at least 3 times each. Will and Grace always puts me in a better mood and it's the only TV show that has actually made me cry from laughing so hard. It's rare for me to even laugh out loud while watching a TV show, but Will and Grace seems to take the tears out of me with no effort.

After Will and Grace and after my awful doctor's office experience, I took a nice hour and a half walk with an old elementary school friend of mine. We take these walks every so often to just catch up on each other's lives and talk to each other about the future. It's nice to be able to talk to someone. I'm the type of person who keeps his thoughts and feelings inside, unless asked by someone to share them. And once asked, I won't stop until my whole life story is brought upon you. I think this world that we live in needs a little of both. Yeah, talking to someone about your problems is a good thing, but I also believe that people should just stop talking for once and listen. Listen to themselves, listen to the world around them, listen to each other. If the world just listened more then I truly believe the world would be a better place. We are always doing something. Always working or always hanging out with friends. We all talk about being so stressed out and wanting time to relax, but once we actually have time to do it we don't do it! Maybe the next time you have a free moment you should just lay down in a dark place and think. Just close your eyes and clear your mind. Forget about the world, forget about yourself. Let your mind become space.

I have always had a love for big cities. I've been dreaming of living in Los Angeles and New York City since I was at least 10. Now that one of those dreams is coming true, I wonder when the other one will become reality. I spent some time tonight searching for the perfect picture of Manhattan at night to put as the background on my computer. I do this every once in a while to keep things interesting. After viewing this picture for some time, I realized that while I love the weather in LA, I feel like my true love is in New York City. Maybe it's just from watching too much Will and Grace. I love the big city lights and the flashing street corners. I've only been to Manhattan once in my life for 2 hours. It was 2 hours I will never forget. I know I will live in Manhattan one day, and I can't wait for that day to come.

Giving It A Chance

Well, I guess I'll try once again to start blogging. My first blog only had 2 posts, and then I became bored with myself and decided to give up. Let's hope this one stays longer.

You are probably wondering who I am....and I wish I could tell you. I don't have the time or patience to tell you who I am simply because I don't know who I am. Maybe you will tell me who I am by reading this blog.

Anyway, so my life is picking up a little bit in excitement....FINALLY! In 9 short days, I will be leaving the life that I have grown accustomed to for the past 18 years and will be moving to Los Angeles to pursue my dreams in the entertainment business. Wow. Nine days. I remember exactly a year ago I was making the biggest decision of my life, to go to college in Chicago or move straight out to LA with a friend.

I'm not sure if I am one to make decisions on impulse. But I do know one thing...if you want something, you have to go and get it and you have to do it NOW! Life isn't going to wait for you. Before you know it it'll zoom right past you before you even know what hit you. That's probably the biggest reason why I decided to risk it all and move to California. Ever since I was little I knew that I was an entertainer. Whenever there was a song in a movie that I really liked, I would watch it over and over again and sing along to it. When I received a karaoke machine for a Christmas present once, I always pretended that I was giving a concert and would sing for hours alone in my room. Whenever I had a bad day, I would watch a movie to cheer me up. (Yes Man, Date Night, and Easy A were the usuals).

Hopefully, in some way, shape, or form, I will achieve my dream of riches and stardom. Not really as much stardom though...more like a Hannah Montana kind of stardom where I can be famous whenever I feel like it. But really more than anything else, my ultimate goal is to inspire people. I want  to make or star in movies where my audience will be clapping and crying tears of joy when it is finished. I want them to go out into the world and fix all of its problems, and I want them to mention my movie for the reason why. Sometimes I will hear a song on the radio that I just get so inspired by and I get all of these really cool plot stories and images in my head just from hearing this song, and then I remind myself that THAT is why I want to go into this industry. It may be difficult, and who knows maybe I won't ever achieve it, but I will try my hardest. I will give it a chance.